The only constant is change

My names Cat. 19 years young with a lot more life experience than most could imagine. I've been up at SFSU for the past two years, double majoring in International Relations and Journalism, minoring in photography...but that may change soon. I have tattoos, 00 gages in my ears, and ride street bikes. If you don't like it, keep it to yourself. I'll drive only stick, so I drive way too fast. I have zero tolerance for bad/stupid drivers, and am not afraid to roll my window down and yell a few obscenities at them. I turn my system up LOUD, strictly reggae hip hop or some experimental shit. I usually sing along and dance. Once again, if you don't like it, don't ride with me. I love the beach, but my favorite season is fall. My favorite holiday is Halloween, and am proud to say my costumes have yet to be slutty. I'm not one to deal with bullshit drama, and do my best to detach myself from anyone that has it. I am not in a sorority, which seems to be the "new hip thing" in college, so please...don't ask me why not, and don't ask me to join. I love to explore, travel, and try new things. I'm pretty much down for anything--from big parties to kickbacks to movie nights at home. I have a small circle of people I trust in general, and an even smaller circle of people I would trust with my life. Shit happens? I forgive but I never forget, so don't expect things to return to normal. I do not believe in God, and despise any type of organized religion. If anything, I relate most with the Taoist tradition...so, if you're respectful of my beliefs and opinions, I will be respectful of yours. I prefer beer and wine to hard alcohol, and smoke cigarettes on occasion. I believe I am a very open and accepting person, and love to make new friends. I rarely get upset about something unless its something big. I stay up late and sleep in late. I love roller coasters. I am simply a romantic, because there is nothing hopeless about me. Very few people can influence my decision to do something, because I am a firm believer that you should live your life the way you want to, and do whatever is in your best interest. Right now you may be saying "wow, Cat must live a pretty fun and crazy life" and youre right, I do. Because I know that one day, I am going to have a near-death experience and my life is going to flash before my eyes....



I guess I just want to make sure its worth watching.

Losing my appetite.

it could have been anyone else...




why her?






Have you ever been kicked in the stomach before? Playing water polo has set me up for many "kick offs" planted directly into mine. You get dizzy, you cant breathe, and you feel like curling up into the fetal position. However while all of these things are going through your mind, you also have to remember youre in 12ft of water, so you have to stay up and suck it up so you dont drown.





I cant breathe. Curled up in the fetal position, i am not in a pool this time.







Yet I still must struggle to keep my head above the water.

For all the rice in China...

How do I even begin?


I will not go into details about last night. I will not harp on the things that happened last night. I cannot even wrap my mind around what happened last night.


No...please dont, no, i cant...no, i have to leave...see ya....


I feel so. Violated. So taken for granted I just want to sit in a corner and cry. You think you know someone, you think theyre your good friend and they turn around and show you a whole different side.


I felt like running. I walked, calmly, out into the hallway...i broke down. I cant...i cant understand how someone that seems so nice and....ugh. I dont understand.




he was drunk, he was high, but what the fuck was he thinking?




I was strong in this situation. I kept my composure and talked my way out the door.




never again.